Hmmm...
Just thought of blogging out my feelings...
Recently, I seriously do not know what really is running in my mind.
Today received a sms from _ E _ _ I _ A saying why I have not been sms-ing her. Where previously whenever I am bored or what so ever, I will sms her. Thinking back, I guess I started to stop sms-ing her is after the science centre (SC) trip.
YES, I maybe looking very happy in all the photos taken. However at some point of time during the tour in the SC, I seriously felt left out, Seriously left out! At some point of time, I can be seen looking at the exhibit alone and not knowing where the rest is. And i have to search for them alone and again "act" as if it's all okay for me and start smiling again. The person i tot i am seriously close with, on tt day somehow is just felt like stranger. Maybe "jealous"???? Or should tt even be the right word? haha... Cos she was like more interested in entertaining him. (personal view)
Oh well... maybe i am just thinking too much...
Another person i been trying to avoid is _ I _ _ _ N.
Oh well... For this, NO CHOICE.
Have not been sms-ing her happily ever since the Aust trip.
How i wish tt time during shanghai NEVER ENDs! The time when i actually pon my Hospitality class and go find her... go catch a movie tgt, go shopping and such... Again, it's all wishful thinking. COME'on!!! She is A________! Since we have already come to a term of just being super close friends, but u will simply get seriously jealous when you see things u dun wish to see... much more, recently, hear things u dun wish to hear. AIYA..!!! 5 yrs leh..! plus aso fate does not bring close to u... aso no coice mah... jus give her e blessing lor...
Anyway was quite happy to receive her sms just now.... It have been months, SERIOUSLY MONTHS!!! since she started to sms me first and sms me very cheerful. I am really glad and happy. However i aso dare not sms with much hope. as chinese gt one saying, the higher u place ur hope, the bigger the pain u will feel for if the thing fails. anyway, i juz gonna let things flow...
In army,
Been trying to clique with my platoon mate.
Ya... from the surface, everything seems tt everything is perfectly normal.
However seriously, i think it's becos i am just trying to blend in.
You will see that, when activity is going on, they will know who to choose or who to talk with. And most of the time, i am left standing alone. Is it because during APC course? I seriously dunno.. Even the 42 SAR guys DOES NOT LIKE THE WAY I DO THINGS. But again! I am just following orders. Am i even wrong? :'(
During ICCT training is one good point to show. Everyone had their partner. ONLY ME! I have to go along with someone from other platoon. In bunk, they have their own internal joke! When buying of things, I am not even in their list, unless i voice out. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I duno... I duno is it I AM THE PROBLEM Or simply i just cannot clique with anyone? FUCK MY LIFE! D:
Not say just about this army, YBC as well.
When ever help is needed for stomp, they will only then recall a person called EUGENE YEO!
Other then that, i guess this person does not even exist in their world.
2 times i felt seriously alone. 1. During the trip to Penang. When everyone is enjoying happily in the room. And where the hell was i? ALONE IN THE ROOM. And what happen when i go to their bunk and ask them to do something, i just ask to get out. And Wilson need to come and step in. 2. During the trip to KL for stomp and exchange. During the rehearsal, again all of them were called to take group pic tgt. AGAIN where the hell was i? ALONE AT THE STAGE. No one bothers to call me to join in. Maybe because i am not in their so call clique / family?
Seriously, if it was the time when amelia, adelina,zoe, siying was around, i believe YBC is somewhere i dun mind help out, as I am been acknowledge inside. They take me as friends. Now? HAHA, i guess more like, NEED HELP? call me. after tt? THROW ME ASIDE. You call this a buddhist group that have special bonding? NO! seriously NO! That is why i choose to not bother any YBC events ever since then. For this yr VEsak stomp, is because i am doing Sis Jackie a favor. Or else, i dun think i will even be BOTHERED!
I DUNO LAH!!!!
FML!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
The result?
I am a ESTJ person.
Extraverted (E)
Sensing (S)
Thinking (T)
Judging (J)
Looking through at the explanation of ESTJ personality, now I know why I am feeling certain ways sometime. I guess I will highlight in yellow those that are me in the reality world. =p
Portrait of an ESTJ - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging
(Extraverted Thinking with Introverted Sensing)
As an ESTJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.
ESTJs live in a world of facts and concrete needs. They live in the present, with their eye constantly scanning their personal environment to make sure that everything is running smoothly and systematically. They honor traditions and laws, and have a clear set of standards and beliefs. They expect the same of others, and have no patience or understanding of individuals who do not value these systems. They value competence and efficiency, and like to see quick results for their efforts.
ESTJs are take-charge people. They have such a clear vision of the way that things should be, that they naturally step into leadership roles. They are self-confident and aggressive. They are extremely talented at devising systems and plans for action, and at being able to see what steps need to be taken to complete a specific task. They can sometimes be very demanding and critical, because they have such strongly held beliefs, and are likely to express themselves without reserve if they feel someone isn't meeting their standards. But at least their expressions can be taken at face-value, because the ESTJ is extremely straight-forward and honest.
The ESTJ is usually a model citizen, and pillar of the community. He or she takes their commitments seriously, and follows their own standards of "good citizenship" to the letter. ESTJ enjoys interacting with people, and likes to have fun. ESTJs can be very boisterous and fun at social events, especially activities which are focused on the family, community, or work.
The ESTJ needs to watch out for the tendency to be too rigid, and to become overly detail-oriented. Since they put a lot of weight in their own beliefs, it's important that they remember to value other people's input and opinions. If they neglect their Feeling side, they may have a problem with fulfilling other's needs for intimacy, and may unknowingly hurt people's feelings by applying logic and reason to situations which demand more emotional sensitivity.
When bogged down by stress, an ESTJ often feels isolated from others. They feel as if they are misunderstood and undervalued, and that their efforts are taken for granted. Although normally the ESTJ is very verbal and doesn't have any problem expressing themself, when under stress they have a hard time putting their feelings into words and communicating them to others. [Extremely true for me]
ESTJs value security and social order above all else, and feel obligated to do all that they can to enhance and promote these goals. They will mow the lawn, vote, join the PTA, attend home owners association meetings, and generally do anything that they can to promote personal and social security.
The ESTJ puts forth a lot of effort in almost everything that they do. They will do everything that they think should be done in their job, marriage, and community with a good amount of energy. He or she is conscientious, practical, realistic, and dependable. While the ESTJ will dutifully do everything that is important to work towards a particular cause or goal, they might not naturally see or value the importance of goals which are outside of their practical scope. However, if the ESTJ is able to see the relevance of such goals to practical concerns, you can bet that they'll put every effort into understanding them and incorporating them into their quest for clarity and security.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Went to have Lunch at IKOI Japanese Restaurant @ Miramar Hotel with Daddy!
Upon sitting down at the table, they will serve you this complementary salmon sashimi. And i can say, it's really good...!
I can say the menu shows quite a variety of items. From Sashimi to broil food, to noodles, rice, and tempura. What i can say about this is that, they serve quite a number of complementary food which it's not in the menu. The complementary soup is also quite delicious, and they serve this deep fried garlic. Eeeeee... But somehow daddy loves it. Haha.... Overall we ordered alot of sashimi, cos it's really very fresh and yummy!!! (Anyway the review keep saying they are famous for their sashimi) Beside Sashimi, the Ebi tempura also quite nice.... we order quite a few time too.. haha... Below are some of e pic of our food! hee.. Not alot, cos most of it forget to take and i started eating liao.. wahaahhaha....
And it's quite a enjoyable lunch! =D
As for Dinner,
When to House of Seafood, 螃蟹之家 for Dinner.
*As Part of Mother's Day dinner celebration* =D
Order a total of 5 dishes and 2 plates of Crab (1.5 Crab for black pepper and 1.5 crab for chilli crab)
As usual, the Black pepper Crab is totally AWESOME!!! YUMMY!!!!
The best part? Tmr I am going there again for dinner. Hahaha...~!
CYA!
Will update the blog again when i am free! :D